Not thinking of the consequences, that's how stupid I can be. As a matter of fact, when things go wrong, more and more facts surface. And I have no one to blame except for myself.

And this morning when I woke up, the first thing that came into my mind was, "I am stupid. Why am I that stupid?"

Somehow I decided to change my blogskin to something brighter, with more whites and lighter color tones. Sourced from blogskin.com (as usual). Edit here and there and so, this is the outcome.


I'd like to present a song to my beloved, Mohammad Saini Bin Arshad. Here's the song and followed by the lyrics.





Tinchy Stryder ft. Amelle Berrabah – Never Leave You

I will never leave
I will never leave

And yeah I’ve been there
right here in the most streets
late nights tryna write momma saying go to sleep the king here
raising war within my own fleet
dealing with the biggest dream I thank the lord daily
I’m sincere and I’ve been from the start I’m still
I’m strong and I have it in my heart
so I dropped tears cause
everything’s changed reminiscing them days tryna turn the page

Cause I been around the world
I seen so many places living the life I’ve worked so hard to make it
trading the world for money stars and power living my life at 100mph
I’m still loving you like it was the first time
I’m still loving you like it was the first time

Woah woah I will never leave ya
Woah woah I will never leave ya

You must be joking
don’t tell me that it’s over from driving the scene forward I am a shofer
it’s open so can we all enter tired of being in the back now I’m center
we’re chosen but there telling us were still in there all we wanna do is
open doors man hear me out were frozen
cause they left us in the cold
only right up to my chance now we bringing it home

Cause I been around the world
I seen so many places living the life I’ve worked so hard to make it
trading the world for money stars and power living my life at 100mph
I’m still loving you like it was the first time
I’m still loving you like it was the first time (like the very first time)

Woah woah I will never leave ya
Woah woah I will never leave ya
Woah woah I will never leave ya
Woah woah I will never leave ya

And yo I dived in and now I’m swimming in the deep end
And I’ve been gone since the weekend so how’s your week been without me
How you keeping well this is come back season (come back season)

Well this is come back season I call it come back
I’ve seen the whole map and I’ll be back by the evening

Cause I’m still loving you like it was the first time
I’m still loving you like it was the first time

Woah woah I will never leave ya
Woah woah I will never leave ya
Woah woah I will never leave ya
Woah woah I will never leave ya



*A note To My Beloved Mohammad Saini Bin Arshad*
I'm really glad that I have you to be part of my life. With all my heart, I love you, I really do. My feelings for you have never changed, not even a moment. I'd like you to know that I’m still loving you like it was the first time. As much as you're supporting me, I'd support you the same too alright dy. I'm looking forward to our upcoming meet ups. & also to our planned date in 2 weeks time =) I love you with all my heart, Mohammad Saini Bin Arshad.

-Written with hugs, kisses and uncountable love-

Labels: Never Leave You

Somehow sitting over a meal or just by sitting together makes us recall and talk about our sweet incidents. And we go =)))

Yesterday, we had our proper date. After so long of depending on our short and simple dates. Lot 1, Expo, Flyers, Makan Sutra and Esplanade in 6 hours plus.

&&& when we passed by the new garden at ECP we go =))) again. A place that we will always remember.


Pictures taken Yesterday, 24th October 2009.







To My Beloved Mohammad Saini Bin Arshad.

We finally had our good time spent with each other that we longed for. It's been a while since we get to spend our time this way. Somehow we know we wouldn't be able to go out like this very often. And when we do, we will use it good. We shall have more outings again.

Dy, I love you a lot. I love you with all my heart. Words are words. But feelings are definitely beyond words. That goes for my feelings for you. It is way beyond words. My love for you can't be explained in just words. But, saying 'I love You' is one of the ways that I could tell you that my feelings for you are really true.

We are not perfect, but we will definitely do the best that we could for each other.

-Written with hugs, kisses and uncountable love-

Labels: Sweet Memories

Everything is moving so slowly suddenly. & I feel myself dying. Inside. Outside. I'm dying. Now tell me, how can I be strong.

Labels: Dying inside out

It's been awhile since I last wrote a proper entry. Today's entry may or may not be a proper one also. Hah! Too many things happened since I started working (that was so 3 months ago!).

Of course, life's been hectic. With this and that, that and this. Seriously, I have more important and serious things to think about right now. & that's the reason to why I've been neglecting a lot and a lot of other things.

Time past very fast (A common and often phrase that I always say). One week of Ramadhan left and we'll be welcoming the Aidilfitri next. Hectic hectic hectic. Aidilfitri this year wouldn't be much of a difference as compared to last years or the years before. But, definitely there'll be a difference. With a family of four on the first week. & of course not forgetting with my love the week after. Of course, I'm looking forward to this year's Aidilfitri =)

With a fixed mindset, things will definitely be in place. Insya'Allah.

More updates when time permits =)


* I met my love on Friday, and I'm missing him a lot already. *

Labels: Fast Update

Dik, Aku pinta
Kau akan selalu setia
Dik, Aku mohon
Kau selalu menemani
Saat ku tengah terluka
Kala ku tengah gundah

Ku akan menjagamu Di bangun dan tidurmu
Di semua mimpi dan nyatamu
Ku akan menjagamu Tuk hidup dan matiku
Tak ingin tak ingin kau rapuh

Dik, Jangan engkau
Pergi tinggalkan aku
Dik, Ingin aku
Cinta dan cinta selalu
Saat kau tengah terluka
Kala kau tengah gundah

Ku akan menjagamu Di bangun dan tidurmu
Di semua mimpi dan nyatamu
Ku akan menjagamu Tuk hidup dan matiku
Tak ingin tak ingin kau rapuh

Kau akan menjagaku Di bangun dan tidurku
Di semua mimpi dan nyataku
Kau akan menjagaku Tuk hidup dan matiku
Tak ingin tak ingin kau rapuh

Ku akan menjagamu Di bangun dan tidurmu
Di semua mimpi dan nyatamu
Ku akan menjagamu Tuk hidup dan matiku
Tak ingin tak ingin kau rapuh



* To the love: I'll always love you with all my heart. *

Labels: Dik - Wali

Today is a meaningful day for me. I've decided to write and so, here it is...



Dear My Love, Mohammad Saini Bin Arshad.


Today, marks our 3rd Year (1096th Day) since we've been together.

2nd September 2006, 2130 hrs.
Our First Date.
I'm sure we'll definitely remember how we spend our time together that night.

2nd September 2009.
We're still standing strong together.

3 Years, we've been through everything together.
The undesirable moments we had that's filled with anger and tears.
The happy moments we had that's filled with smiles and laughters.
It's been 3 Years, we went through every obstacle that comes into our way.

I guess, you will never understand how grateful I am to have you in my life.
You were always there whenever I am in need.
You gave me your shoulder for me to cry on,
And you gave me your ears to listen to every rants I have.

I truly appreciate every deeds you've done for me.
And I'd also like to thank you for all your deeds.
My appreciation towards you are beyond words.

I can't repay your care and love.
But I will definitely return you with my sincere care and love,
And from the bottom of my heart, just for you.

I believe we will always support each other to stand on our feet,
And never let anyone of us to fall.
I truly believe we can do it,
And have much faith in us.

Other things that start have its end,
But, for our love...
We start...
& there wouldn't be any end.

I'll always love you.
I will always love you more today than yesterday.

Written with hugs, kisses and uncountable love.

Labels: Our 3rd Year